Thursday, July 21, 2005
it's a thursday!!! so weird... having a thursday without dazu... normally by this time of the day i will be so tired out by the pracs that i'll already be sleeping on the bed... and IF i'm not sleeping... i'll be on the bed looking at the pu and highlighting the important parts over and over again... thinking through what mrs ee or mr lee said in the previous week and call eunice if i recall anything... guess i'll never ever get the chance to do this again... haiz... though it's hectic.. i kninda miss it... i miss turning back telling the juniors to do taifeng... i miss telling the juniors to take care of their yin zhun... i miss showing xiaole that i have sweets yet refuse to pass it to her... i miss passing a full packet of sweets to the juniors and get an empty pack back... i miss shopping in 7-11 thinking if i have the money to contribute to the cellobass food bank... i miss co pracs on thursdays...
strangely... alot of things seemed to happen on thursdays... guzheng concert (240305)... syf(210405)....syf showcase(070705)... all the performances... i'll miss them.... and we played feng nian ji in all these performances... haha.. yeah... don't think i'll ever get the tune out of my mind...
23:08
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
finally got the time [and computer] to blog about the festival of arts.... though we didn't really do very very well [not as well as syf at least]... but it was at least satisfactory.... remembering each and every moment on stage on that particular night... the last night i can stand on the stage performing as a part of nyco... the last time i was to wait in the darkness.... the last time i was to laugh at andrea for being so afraid of the dark.... the last time i was to stand when mrs ee gets on stage... the last time was to 'breathe' with the entire nyco.... the last time i was to LOOK at xiaole when we're playing... the last time i was to stand after the performance on that stage... the last time i was to rush off stage carrying so many things.... the last time i was to cry with the nyco... probably the last time i was to laugh at xiaole when she cry.... these are the memories and the feelings that i hope i will never forget... these are the friends, juniors and even gossip topics that i hope i will remember forever... 10 years later... i hope that i can still meet up with the happy family and the ssabollec... talking about this particular day... performance... practices... memories that we once shared together...
sec 1:
honestly... i only joined CO because of sihui... remember the first day i walk into m4-01... i was like.... wearing my shoes lor... and i didn't even realise!!! the seniors were playing
LONG and i remember mrs ee was making xyz repeat again and again... i almost fell asleep lor... heeez.... then sihui was asking me why i was wearing my shoes and i freaked out and tried the 'crawl' out of the room... so that my skirt will cover my shoes.... but to my horror... sihui told mrs ee that i wore my shoes in!!! was super embarrassed lor.... and initiall i wanted to join pipa... but they say my fingers are not long enough.. so i cannot go... then they ask me to choose between cello, suona and sheng... i was quite sad lehz... in the end i chose cello lor... duh... when i entered cello room... there was only 3 people inside... veron eunice and boon pin i think... and the seniors TRIED to teach us how to play the cello... haha... i remember i was playing sinyee's cello... who was the first person who taught me how to hold a cello...
subsequently i joined nycellobass.... in the past... it was quite pathetic... cos we only had 1 working school cello and there were 3 cello juniors... so we'll rotate... and while 1 is praccing cello... the other 2 will be slacking... haha... and then... the STAPLE incident!!! [pls approach any ssabollecs for details...] lala... still remember the first time i played a dazu song...
JIN SHE KUANG WU... thinking back... it's super easy lor... but i couldn't play it then and was hun-ning behind eunice and veron... haha... then the first time we played with seniors was
ZHUANG JIN... that was the one and only time i got blisters on my fingers i think... [cause subsequently... i got sores instead]
i got my first ever cello that year too!!!! i was practically gawking at my cello then lah... and panda was praising it to the skies... the strings are from germany... the bridge and rosin is from france... the bow is from england... etc etc... but he ACCIDENTLY missed out saying that the entire cello body is from CHINA lor!!! hmph!! but nevermind... i still love my cello... it's a gold with honours cello k... haha...
and we had CO concert that year as well... i was a backstage helper... and so proud of our timing lah..... 45 seconds for the putting up and taking down of the FULL orchestra... haha... super right... and we had to practise till ard 7 pm everyday for the week before the concert lor...
that for hui bao that year... i played
LONG LONG AGO!!! haha... that's what the sec 1 juniors are playing this year as well... haha... so shuang... but i think they'll play better that me... haha... then for CO camp.... we lianed dazu at night... haha... and i was raining cats and dogs outside where it's really warm inside... and mrs ee was telling us that the last time they had co camp... it was raining during dazu as well.... and the sleepwalking story!!!
sec 2:
first performance: cca orientation concert performance for sec 1s... haha... played
FENG SHOU LUO GU.... practised real hard for it... [hmm.... yeah right]... then got my very first cello junior!!! ANDREA ANG EE LING and LIM MINGYI!!! initially there was alot of juniors.. but one by one they quit.... hmm.. so sad right... but nevermind... still got andrea... haha...not very fortunate though... and mrs ee got pregnant... so she couldn't conduct for us in SYF... yeapz...
then that year... we had syf.... me and eunice didn't get in... welll... alot of reasons... was quite sad for a period of time... somemore we only got a silver that year...yeapz... but well.. it's all over!!! and then FOA 2003!!! we played
JIU GE and
SHI CHENG YIN CHUN.... had to memorize CO score for the first time... it was so difficult then... not that the situation improved alot now lah... but then.....
and then... that year we couldn't have an overnight camp... cos mrs ee have to look after her son... so we had a day camp... though it was not as fun as a night camp... and it enjoyable lah... haha... and we played
CELEBRATED CANON for hui bao!!!
sec 3:
in sec 3... we have one more batch of juniors!!! SHIRU [she trasferred out later] MAUREEN JIAYING [andrea is her PSGL... and she is tricia's PSGL... i see a cycle... erm... cycling]... YANQI YUHSUAN joined later... they are a saner batch of juniors.. haha!!!
yeapz... and that year... cheegake was the VP and boonpin and liuting was the SL... yeapz... and we had CO concert!!! i was in charger of stage layout then.. can still remember all the moving of pu jia and chairs down to the audi and all the screamings to the back stage crew... hmmm we played
YAO ZU WU QU...
XI YU FANG MU...
BEI GUO DUI HUA...
ZHONG YUAN LUO GU...
HONG MEI SUI XIANG QU...
PI PA GE...
FANG PAI...
YUE XIA...
DOU NIU....can still remember all the practices before the concert... haha.. esp hong mei... so difficult!!! haha... and yue xia... had to dui every yin with the tuner... still remember after the concert... we cried bucket... cause we couldn't imagine practices without seniors... but i guessed we survived!!!
then there was the CO camp and the chalet... it was overnight camp and we managed to secure our cello room yet again!!! haha... sho happie... for hui bao that year... we played
CHARCONNE and
BACH SUITE NO. 1... super difficult lor... practised till i went crazy... i don't like bach!!! then the chalet!!! formed the happie familee... with all the gossip queens in nyco... haha... can still remember sihui setting the entire pit on fire... haha... hmm... she's kinda dangerous yeah?? ahaha...
sec 4:
last year in nyco!!! most memorable thing that happened is probably the syf!! hahaha... can still remember all the practices we had before the syf... the moment on that huge stage... the moment when the emcee said... chinese orchestra no. 25... nanyang girls' high school... gold... with honours... haha... so ego sia... oh yeah... will always remember
FENG NIAN JI and
XING KONG... the syf pieces... and that we all cried like siao after the syf... mr lee laughing at me and said that i cried like i got a COP... hmph!!! at least i'm better than xiaole lor...
then the FOA!!!
CHUN was quite okay lah... got cello melody mah!!! haha... bhb... anyway... still remember all the crying after the last performance... the fact then andrea cried when she was trying to keep her cello... hmmm... haha... yeah.... and that xiaole was laughing at us when we were crying... and in the end... she cried really badly when we were at the finale singing when you believe... amusing sia... and she made everyone cry again!!! hmph!!!!
will always remember the times we had in m401 m403... all the stories that were told by seniors and was passed down to the juniors... the times we had at coro... lunches at ke ai ji... cafe whatever and prince... where we once had so many people that we had to sit in separate tables...really want to thank all the seniors....
huiyuan: for leading me and telling me where is m4 03... for teaching me and eunice WO YUN MEI TAN KUAI KUAI PAO...
weiqi: for entertaining us with your ghost stories when we had to wait for our turn to practice the cello...
shanshan: for the only statement i remember of you... chang1 jiang1 hou4 lang4 tui1 qian1 lang4...
crystal: for all the lian xi qus you left in the cellobass drawer... for the bass seat that we only use when we need a table to do homework
choonting: thanks for loving SHE as much as i do!! haha... thanks for your ghost stories!! will always remember the times when all of us will sit on the cello room floor in the dark... listening to your ghost stories...
cheegake: thank you for being such a sweet senior who always try to teach us how to play the pieces... still remember who exasperated you were when you tried to teach us how to play YUE ER GAO... haha..
boonpin: thanks for volunteering to help us da paizi... so far you only broke erm... 2 markers and 1 cello tail piece...
liuting: eunice always say that the fact that andrea bullies me is retribution for bullying you in the past... but i didn't lor... bleahz!! you always kick me as well mah... haha... though i do kick back... thanks for letting me bully you and make CO practices SO enjoyable... haha... and did i tell you that your actions are very funny at the end of SHI CHENG YIN CHUN?? haha...
huiwen: thanks for always showing concern towards us juniors!!
sinyee: thanks for lending me your cello for the first attempt at cello!!! haha.... i still can picture you playing perpetual motion...
wanqi: thanks for being so crazy and making practices less boring...
angie: thanks for always being so logical and nice!!! always pulling us back to reality!!!
yirong: still amazed at your speed when you read a book... have you finished reading hp yet??? i bet you finished reading on the first day... haha...
to all the juniors... thank you for making my job as a SL so easy... thank you so much for all the memories of the miracles we created together... to the next SL... ASL.. VPs... jia you in whatever you do in the future... bring cellobass up to greater heights okay... sorry for the mood swings i might have after a practice... sorry for making you do tai feng... sorry for everything i have done wrong... for the entire year... it has been really comforting to know that whatever happens to me during practice... there will always be the whole lot of you supporting me behind... thank you really much... i cannot imagine practices without you guys.. the fun... the laughter and the tears... the tears we shed after we know that we achieved a gold with honours and the tears we shed after the last performance we had with each other...
to the happie familee... xiaole daphne sihui and jiangchuan.... can't imagine going for CO without you guys... all the gossiping with each other... we will be separated all over the place next year... RJCO... VJCO and HCCO.. we must still meet up [and gossip] k?? will miss all of you...
18:05
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
do you know how irritated you can get when you have a point to make yet there's no point making it anymore... and stop asking me to cool down, it doesn't work. it only makes me more agitated. it hasn't been working for the last four years and it never will. it only goes to show how little you know about me. stop acting as if you do understand me cos you never did. i mean i don't even understand myself. stop thinking that you know how i feel cos you can't see the other side of me. stop acting as if you know exactly what i think. it irks me. i think the problem lies here. you don't understand me. and i doubt you ever will.
20:53
Nanyang Chinese Orchestra Committee 2005-2006
President - Sharon [Liuqin]
Vice- President 1 - Andrea [Cello/ Bass]
Vice- President 2 - YiLing [Cello/ Bass]
Secretary - Danhong [Xian Yue]
Treasurer - Yanting [Liuqin]
Assistant Treasurer - Huiyi [Ruan]
Manager of General Affairs - Shawn [Yangqin/ Percussion]
Assistant Manager of General Affairs - Lifern [Dizi]
Activity Coordinator - Phoebe [Pipa]
Student Conductor - Maureen [Cello/ Bass]
Scores in Charge - Yonghui and Adeline [Xian Yue]
Sectional Leaders:
Xian Yue - Hannah[SL] Sheila [ASL]
Cellobass - Mingyi [SL] Jiaying [ASL]
Pipa - Yueyang
Liuqin - Szuan
Ruan - Michelle
Yangqin/ Percussion - Ziyi [Tanbo SL]
Sheng / Suo - Shiaohong
Dizi - Julianna
20:09
Sunday, July 03, 2005
13 days to FOA.. 13 days to my last performance as a member of nyco. i don't want to leave as well. was reading my previous blog entries and i started crying again after reading this particular entry from 24072004:
"just came back from CO concert... it was a huge sucess a right... and i cried.... again....partly because i felt very accomplished.... i played songs that i never thought i would be able to play... there were times when i really feel like giving up.... and give up cello... chinese orchestra... yue xia... hong mei.... but i did it!!!another reason for me crying was the leaving of the sec 4s.... ok... that was the main reason.... well... the prospect of going into m4-03 or m4-01 without seeing chee gake or boon pin... without them nagging at us to arrange the chairs... without them da-ing pai zi for us....or even without seeing yirong reading at a corner or not having an gie to pull us back into real-life situation when we got too crazy.... well.... it just seems abit frightening.... feels kind of lost... ever since like sec 2.... my only motivation to get through a week of school was CO practices.... it's forever filled with fun.... i really dunno how CO practices will be like when i am like... the oldest and have to nag at juniors.... it's just... too serious for me... and then it's like... ever since sec 1... there had always been this group of ppl who we can turn to when we meet with troubles regardless in CO or in school studies, family problems... etc...... and then suddenly... i have to learn to cope without these seniors.... it's like... losing a kao shan..... i noe we had expected these right at the beginning and i was just telling eunice a few days ago that what will come would come... but... it's still abit overwhelming....die.... i feel like crying all over again...."
the time passed too quickly...
21:16
i feel like crying suddenly... maybe i haven't been putting in enough effort to make it work. the relationship between us is getting from bad to worse. i want to go back to the past, yet i can't bring myself to change my way of thinking. i know ignoring her presence is not going to help at all. but that is the only way for me to avoid facing her.
20:32
