Thursday, March 30, 2006
lalala... i love crapping with FOFM... totally crazy lorh! hmm.. aiwen arh.. honestly, i really think you should sing that song to him lorh... he'll love it! haha... THE STORY OF ________________.
anyway, i'm not crying anymore le... don't worry abt me!! haha... i'm fine! really! hahaha, the sheer thought of NAIWEN really stopped all the tears, or rather, converted them to tears of laughter!
hmm... to be on the safe side, shall go and apologise to aiwen tml... i don't want _______ to come and beat me up. he's like one 'art ruler' taller than me???!???!??!!
ok... this is a VERY random entry.
22:26
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
was reading some people's blog just now... and realised that i really have to read blogs more erm... regularly. cos i realised that some of them wasn't feeling very happy in a particular period of time and i didn't even know about it. am i too preoccupied in my own world?
one year ago, at this time, i think all of us were packing and checking our bags (luggage, in my case) to check if we've brought everything... from makeup to gown... fofm were celebrating our victory for the class mascot/song/cheer thing... sometimes i really feel like going back and relive those moments again. it's as if i didn't appreciate them when they were right before me, and now i can only submerge myself in the memories i've created then.
at this period of time, i guess i was also hmm... scolding people and getting scolded for not putting enough effort? i remember it was at this point of time when mrs ee said to us that, at the rate we're going, we can only get a bronze for syf. honestly, i don't mind getting scolded all over again, cos i really enjoyed doing what i was doing even if it means failing in it.
i miss the times when we can just sit in a circle at the back of the class and say whatever we want. we could be so sure that there will be at least 5 people listening to us and helping to solve the problems we have... but now, it's so hard to even find that ONE person.
maybe we were better off at thos times.
class list will be out tml... crossing my fingers...
20:04
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
4 years of knowing you, and i never found the problem between you and me for the last two years. the conflicts and the quarrels we had. there was once a period of time when we so desperately tried to find the root of the problem and tried so hard to change ourselves so as to accomodate each other. but we never did succeed and ended up leaving the problem unsolved.
but now, i finally realised why i couldn't stand you any more. i hate the fact that i have to listen to you grumbling about your less than perfect life every single time i see you. i hate the fact that i never managed to finish conveying what i wanted to say to you. i hate the fact that you always have to cut in and talk about other irrelevant stuff when i haven't even finished my sentence. i hate the fact that you never did bother to listen to me when i so desperately needed someone to.
i hate you. and now i know why.
21:41
