Friday, September 08, 2006
i look silly. tearing from time to time on the bus ride home. constantly trying to stop myself from crying. i am tired, exhausted and exasperated. i really regret telling sihui all those stuff after grad night. all the huge theories about seeing things from different points of view and putting ourselves in your shoes so as to understand your difficulties. cos, i realised that even i am unable to continue doing that. it suddenly ocurred to me that, while we were trying so hard to accomodate with you, have you EVER tried putting yourself in our shoes and see things from our perspective?
maybe the familiee should just break up already. all the heartwarming moments we had. all the promises we made to each other. all the changes we made for each other. they shall all cease to exist. and you know what? it is all because of you. i remember telling sihui on the same night that giving up on the entire familiee for one person is not worth it at all. now, i feel like taking all those words back. what's the point of keeping the entire familiee together this way? no one will be happy anyway. we'll just be busy being angry with that one person that enjoy ourselves anyway.
it's really tiring to just sit in a restaurant thinking of what to do while waiting for this one person's reply. how to while our time away as we wait for the reply which usually comes like one hour later. and one thing really puzzles me, why is your phone ALWAYS on low batt? it's such a lame excuse that it just doesn't seem valid anymore. you've used it too many times.
actually, i'm sure that sihui and daph will always hold that special place in my life. it's just you who i can no longer stand. (before i cool down, at least.)
i'm so pissed off that, ironically, i do not care anymore.
i thought you promised to change.
now, i just wish that you were never that important to the 3 of us.
i'm just, too disappointed.
22:13
